Today was one of those days that I miss America.
But I think this is kind of what happens to me whenever we close one chapter of life and open a new. The grass was greener on the other side. I can easily remember the good times and have a harder time remembering the struggles we have had in the past. But it’s the opposite it seems when looking at the present sometimes.
I can see the struggles of right now, because I do not know where these struggles are going to lead me. Or how long I will be dealing with them. And these struggles can overtake the best parts of the now.
Things like getting to actually watch my son grow up from home instead of having to work. Things like exciting cultural experiences and new understandings of life itself. Things like getting to experience parts of the world that many people don't.Things like watching God work in our lives in ways we couldn't imagine from our couch in America.
And if I am not careful, I will miss it. And that would be a very sad thing.
It doesn't mean it's not ok to look back on my past and smile. We've had some great memories in the past few years. But I am working on not missing the present. Because there will be a time in the future where I will be longing for this moment once again.